At the Beach

I've been thinking some about "resolve." I've also been feeling some like an idiot, which I can be. Why is it that making a resolution fills me with such trepidation & doubt? So many places to go with that one, but I think it's back to vanity. Yep- making a resolution is a commitment to work which means hardship and discomfort at times, saying 'no' to the flesh and all that, which is 'the battle' in a lot of ways. The problem for me is that this attacks and calls into question what and who I think I am, or want to be, or want to think I am, which of course, is a much more nice and sanctified version of who or what I really am...

Resolve means " to reach a firm decision about" (merriam webster). And my makeup, sadly, has brought me to a place where I feel like there have been very few firm decisions I've made. Hence, I often feel like not much has been done. So, okay, enough about that.

I resolve to get rid of anger, to stand up to my fear, to write some songs and to write in my blog a little more often. I resolve to connect more with what is going on in my homeschool. I resolve to think less about me.

Just some thoughts from the hot beach....