Monday, June 30, 2008

A Monday Morning

Read this morning in a devotional some thoughts about living life one step at a time, putting your hand to the next thing you are to do and to dwell in contentment. I'm learning, at least, what a gift that state is, because it is so elusive! I prefer to fret and worry over 'what next', over 'what then', and forsake the opportunity that is before me, or waste time.

There are so many things that are wonderful and beautiful. A lot of them have to do with little connections, snuggles, or laughs with a daughter, son or my wife. They are precious!

We've begun making some decisions about school for the fall, and the rest of the summer for that matter. I am excited about being involved more--but that involvement really begins with engagement, thought, prayer about moving through this homeschool thing and sharing the load. Why has it been so 'off the radar?' I love homeschooling, I love that my wife is passionate about it, yet I move through life moping through my work and duties and just...don't think!

I admit, often it's just off the radar, so it's not even "You know, I'd rather NOT go over science or check a grid"--it's that those things weren't in the list of choices of things to do! That's got to be frustrating to those I'm to be helping and leading through this phase of life.

I want to refocus, and it begins with doing and wrestling with the next thing before me to do, not dreaming about a possibility that may or may not occur some months from now. That's here at home and at work. You must be grieved, Lord, by all the distracted musings. Well, I lay this day back on Your altar. It's the day You have made, and it's for being glad in and rejoicing!

"Turn my eyes from looking at worthless things; and give me life in your ways."
Ps 119:37